i have no where to go,
except to stay in your arms,
and let your touch heal me from all my hurts.
only then i can soar and
guide the broken hearted to your loving grace.

:) this is what i got in a moment of inspiration, not from myself but God.

yeah. so on thurs i was busy doing stuff for Culture. but something happened, and it made my heart having this mixed feelings. i wanted someone whom i can tell this to, i hoped my "colleagues" treat me a little more kind and not do anything to add on to my pain. despite of asking my God to help me, i kinda question Him why is this thing happening to me.

after work, the guys and i went to play badminton. then i sat alone, with the rest one court away from me, looking at them and the people before me having their games. suddenly a voice from within told me that i should trust in God rather than on people. (only God can take away the pain. putting hope on people for joy, for remedy doesn't help, and it'll only deepen the cut on the heart.)-that was paraphrasing, i didn't thought of this much at that point of time. :)

i wanted to make sure it came from God, so i looked into the Word of God - Bible.

it is better to trust the Lord than to put confidence in people.
Psalm 118:8

*grins*

someone thought i was disappointed by my friends, but no, i am not. :)

i want to make the better choice, to trust in God. perhaps He is teaching me to make the better choice, so that i can be prepared for the future, in a place where i won't have my friends with me, but only God who would be with me to take care of my every needs.

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okay, my result was out on fri. had a bad dream about the grade for my project, i got a G, ha. and it scared me out of my sleep. woke up and check my result. i got a C for the project module, yay! not really a good grade but if you know what happened to my project, you'll understand. for the other two modules i got B, yay! i have to say God has helped me though the exams.

first module: i got 50/100 for common test. and up till 1-2 weeks before the paper, i still couldn't understand what my lecturers were teaching about, and i missed the revision class, when the lecturer would give the study guide. thank God my helpful classmate was willing to share with me the points to study. and God helped me to spot questions. then the night before the paper, i hoped that God would not put the stuff which i know and those i don't know together in the same question, and it turned out the way. oh! and the lecturer actually sent us an email that contain questions from part of the paper and i only realised it on the night i had done the paper. so i can say God helped me, not the lecturer. :)

second module: ashamed to say, i missed lots of lectures, and the main part of my program did not work. but with God's grace, and i don't know how it happened, i got an B. :)

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and then there was chi (pronounced as kai) zone outreach to areas around youth park. all i can say is God is doing amazing works at the peoples' lifes, as well as ours'. more details please refer to chi members' blog.

and alpha zone meeting, youth service, sunday service were all awesome.

i had a wonderful weekend!

what a long post.

Labels: bible, God is real