i have no where to go,
except to stay in your arms,
and let your touch heal me from all my hurts.
only then i can soar and
guide the broken hearted to your loving grace.

:) this is what i got in a moment of inspiration, not from myself but God.

yeah. so on thurs i was busy doing stuff for Culture. but something happened, and it made my heart having this mixed feelings. i wanted someone whom i can tell this to, i hoped my "colleagues" treat me a little more kind and not do anything to add on to my pain. despite of asking my God to help me, i kinda question Him why is this thing happening to me.

after work, the guys and i went to play badminton. then i sat alone, with the rest one court away from me, looking at them and the people before me having their games. suddenly a voice from within told me that i should trust in God rather than on people. (only God can take away the pain. putting hope on people for joy, for remedy doesn't help, and it'll only deepen the cut on the heart.)-that was paraphrasing, i didn't thought of this much at that point of time. :)

i wanted to make sure it came from God, so i looked into the Word of God - Bible.

it is better to trust the Lord than to put confidence in people.
Psalm 118:8

*grins*

someone thought i was disappointed by my friends, but no, i am not. :)

i want to make the better choice, to trust in God. perhaps He is teaching me to make the better choice, so that i can be prepared for the future, in a place where i won't have my friends with me, but only God who would be with me to take care of my every needs.

...

okay, my result was out on fri. had a bad dream about the grade for my project, i got a G, ha. and it scared me out of my sleep. woke up and check my result. i got a C for the project module, yay! not really a good grade but if you know what happened to my project, you'll understand. for the other two modules i got B, yay! i have to say God has helped me though the exams.

first module: i got 50/100 for common test. and up till 1-2 weeks before the paper, i still couldn't understand what my lecturers were teaching about, and i missed the revision class, when the lecturer would give the study guide. thank God my helpful classmate was willing to share with me the points to study. and God helped me to spot questions. then the night before the paper, i hoped that God would not put the stuff which i know and those i don't know together in the same question, and it turned out the way. oh! and the lecturer actually sent us an email that contain questions from part of the paper and i only realised it on the night i had done the paper. so i can say God helped me, not the lecturer. :)

second module: ashamed to say, i missed lots of lectures, and the main part of my program did not work. but with God's grace, and i don't know how it happened, i got an B. :)

...

and then there was chi (pronounced as kai) zone outreach to areas around youth park. all i can say is God is doing amazing works at the peoples' lifes, as well as ours'. more details please refer to chi members' blog.

and alpha zone meeting, youth service, sunday service were all awesome.

i had a wonderful weekend!

what a long post.

Labels: bible, God is real

Labels: bible, God is real

yeah. again i was on my way to school for prayer group. i thought back and remembered what i told ben yesterday, about the outreach we are doing, only about 6 of us are doing most of the work, so i said this is OUR project. but he said the rest still can help us on the day of outreach, so it means the rest will still be part of this outreach when they join, even if they didn't help with the preparation. part of me thought it was unfair, but the other part of me thinks that his words do make some sense.

as i was still in my thoughts, this story Jesus told his disciples came to me ...

Matthew 20

“For the Kingdom of Heaven is like the landowner who went out early one morning to hire workers for his vineyard. 2 He agreed to pay the normal daily wage and sent them out to work.

3 “At nine o’clock in the morning he was passing through the marketplace and saw some people standing around doing nothing. 4 So he hired them, telling them he would pay them whatever was right at the end of the day. 5 So they went to work in the vineyard. At noon and again at three o’clock he did the same thing.

6 “At five o’clock that afternoon he was in town again and saw some more people standing around. He asked them, ‘Why haven’t you been working today?’

7 “They replied, ‘Because no one hired us.’

“The landowner told them, ‘Then go out and join the others in my vineyard.’

8 “That evening he told the foreman to call the workers in and pay them, beginning with the last workers first. 9 When those hired at five o’clock were paid, each received a full day’s wage. 10 When those hired first came to get their pay, they assumed they would receive more. But they, too, were paid a day’s wage. 11 When they received their pay, they protested to the owner, 12 ‘Those people worked only one hour, and yet you’ve paid them just as much as you paid us who worked all day in the scorching heat.’
13 “He answered one of them, ‘Friend, I haven’t been unfair! Didn’t you agree to work all day for the usual wage? 14 Take your money and go. I wanted to pay this last worker the same as you. 15 Is it against the law for me to do what I want with my money? Should you be jealous because I am kind to others?’
16 “So those who are last now will be first then, and those who are first will be last.”

it didn't take much time for me to find this story, i found it when i opened my bible. ha.

my original motive for doing is outreach is to help others and i didn't thought of making a name for myself so that other's can know what i've done. but somehow, my mind got distorted and my heart became "impure".

i thank God for His reminder and teachings that has stopped me from having that ugly thought, and make me refocus on my original motive in doing His work.

hmmm. i feel that i need to say this...


to the many prayer groups out there! don't be so enthu about your schools' outreach yet be distracted by other stuff and get your focus messed up with impure desires. even if the outreach is a success, God will not be pleased because your heart is not with Him.

so yeah. hope my readers enjoy reading this and leave any comments you have any. ha. you don't have to if you don't want. i'm just joking. la la la. ha ha ha. i am crazy. :)

may all PG outreach be a success and God be pleased by the hearts of many!

Labels: bible, God is real

when i was on the bus on the way to school for prayer group, i was reminded and disgusted by what i did in the past. i couldn't stop the images of memory running in my head, i wished to stop but for that moment i was stuck, i didn't try to do anything to stop my thoughts from running.

but God provided me a way out of this "temptation" i faced. i looked down at my bag, and the word "bible" came to my head. i smiled and decide to continued to read from where i stopped. immediately my head was filled with His word and not on other things.

i thanked God for His faithfulness as i remained faithful in Him.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

yeah. if God has brought me out of the situation i faced, surely He will do the same for you, because there is no favouritism in His eyes.

:]

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(Hillsong United)
Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord

~
hmmm. did i post this song before? i think so, but i can't find.

so today is (/yesterday was) chu er - second day of cny. unlike previous years, my relatives from my mum's side would come to visit on this day. so both my sis and sis2's hubby and tingwei! went to esplanade to walk walk :D nice time spent together walking and eating and talking :)

reached home about 6plus, eat and online for awhile. watched the 7pm show, then watched Shaolin Soccer, a comedy, but i still felt very bored, very lifeless. blah.

then i gave up hope on tv and decide to do read the Word of God - Bible :)

Exodus 34:14 You must worship no other gods, but only the Lord, for he is a God who is passionate about his relationship with you.

indeed! when i decide to go to him and let his word speak to me, i felt relieved. those bored/lifeless feelings left. this isn't the first time, and definitely not the last time, i felt this way. there were times i felt angry/disappointed, and as i write down my feelings on my journal, i would feel calmed and even remember the good things that happened in the day.

yes. this is one of the reasons of why I Love God! ;P

hmmm. am i making sense to you? :D

Labels: bible, lyrics

(New International Version)
1 To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;

2 in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.

3 No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.

4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;

5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.

7 Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you are good, O LORD.

8 Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.

9 He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them his way.

10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful
for those who keep the demands of his covenant.

11 For the sake of your name, O LORD,
forgive my iniquity, though it is great.

12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?
He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.

13 He will spend his days in prosperity,
and his descendants will inherit the land.

14 The LORD confides in those who fear him;
he makes his covenant known to them.

15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.

16 Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.

17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.

18 Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.

19 See how my enemies have increased
and how fiercely they hate me!

20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.

21 May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in you.

22 Redeem Israel, O God,
from all their troubles!

Amen.

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meaning caused by the reflection and refraction of sunlight by droplets of rain, a rainbow often appears after the passing of a thunderstorm, marking its end. The bow is coloured by the division of sunlight into its primary colours. The rainbow is served to remind Israel and her God of His convenant with Noah to never again destroy the earth by flooding (Genesis 9:8-17).
[Holman Illustrated Pocket Bible Dictionary]

(New Living Translation)

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A psalm of David.

1 I will sing of your love and justice, Lord.
I will praise you with songs.

2 I will be careful to live a blameless life—
when will you come to help me?
I will lead a life of integrity
in my own home.

3 I will refuse to look at
anything vile and vulgar.
I hate all who deal crookedly;
I will have nothing to do with them.

4 I will reject perverse ideas
and stay away from every evil.

5 I will not tolerate people who slander their neighbors.
I will not endure conceit and pride.

6 I will search for faithful people
to be my companions.
Only those who are above reproach
will be allowed to serve me.

7 I will not allow deceivers to serve in my house,
and liars will not stay in my presence.

8 My daily task will be to ferret out the wicked
and free the city of the Lord from their grip.

Labels: bible